An example of modern, quality R&B.
Lots of radio play.
Consequently, it continually gets stuck in my head.

Ne Yo - So Sick

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cus you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice
Anymore

It's ridiculous
It's been months for some reason I just
Can't get over us
And I'm stronger than this
Enough is enough
No more walking 'round with my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I had
That's marked July 15th
Cuz since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memories
And now every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason
I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Oooh
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Stupid love songs
Hey,
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm lettin go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
She were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Why can't I turn off the radio?
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Does it apply to me?
I'm not entirely sure.
Had a conversation w/ an old high school bud of mine the other day.
Feels great to hear a familiar voice again by the way.
He received great relationship advice from an elderly couple in regards to staying together for so long.

"Don't break up."

I didn't want to break up.
I still want to get back together.
Some may consider me weak for wanting so.
With a three and a half year relationship that was filled with a good 98.765% of good memories, can you blame me?

For better or for worse,
For richer or poorer,
In sickness and in health,
To love and to cherish,
'Til death do us part.

Standard wedding vow.
All relationships are work, even the great ones.
We should be working out our problems together.
There was no infidelity, no abuse, nothing in my mind that we can cite as "irreconcilable differences."
Only things that can be solved and fixed with time.

I understand the need for space.
But taking time away from each other wouldn't be a healthy thing in a married life with kids involved.
All the time apart leads to is self-justification that it is a good thing to be apart.
People are so quick to find reasons to break apart relationships, what about the ones for staying together?

Sure I've found a rallying point to use to hate and forget Sandee.
I could always listen to all my friends that talk shit about her, stop defending her, and move on with my life.
I don't want to do that though.
The pros far outweigh the cons in this relationship, and all of the cons are fixable.

Only problem is, I don't know how long I can continue to think like this.
Or at least want to work things out.

To the few couples I know that are still together:
Don't break up.
Stick together and work things out.

For those that have been sending prayers my way in hopes of a better life for me:
Please direct them towards people that need them more than myself.
But if you must insist...
Make it specific.
Help someone with good credit to change their minds regarding this co-borrower thing.

It's so easy to hate.

The Random Quote:
"Cherish her love." - Brian McKnight